Thursday, October 25, 2007

Feeling Blue will it ever go away???

Wow so much has happened. I am not quite sure how I can descreibe how I am feeling.One thing I know is I am tired as I can't seem to sleep at all.I have been averaging about 2to4 hours every night.I am soo tired of feeling blue,wish I could shake it.Feeling very lonely doesn't help to much either.I love my job, family and friends so why is it that I just want to be alone and not get out of bed? Why do I cry every time I am alone,or cry my self to sleep.


Thankful Thursday!!!
I am so thankful that my sisters and I are becoming closer with everyday and talking more.
I am thankful for old friendships being renewed.
I am thankful for my family and friends.
I am thankful that my husband and i have jobs in a time when many don't.
I am thankful for my children's understanding and patience.
I am thankful for the rain.
I am thankful for food in my cupboards.
I am thankful for the many things that have been provided for us.
I am thankful for my husbands love and understanding.
I am thankful for the sun even admist in the rain.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Thankful Thursday!!!!!




Well what a couple of weeks we have had,with all the hustle and bustle of going back to work,bill going back to camp and the kids going back to school.Do you ever go through times where you feel you just don't belong.By means of no invites to girls night out,birthday parties or events.I feel pushed aside,forgotten,not important.

Now that I have said what i have been holding in for a long time I will get to my favorite post...,thankful thursday!!!!

I am thankful for my two beautiful children who taught me patience,love and understanding.
I am thankful for my husband who with all my faults still loves me unconditionally.
I am thankful for the birth of my second cousin.
I am thankful that my cousin has found love.
I am thankful for the many friendships i have(terri would be lost without you)
I am so thankful that my brother just celebrated his 20th birthday.(luv yah buddy)
I am thankful for the rain,love dancing in it just nobody else wants to.
I am thankful that the little kid comes out in me.
I am thankful that i don't take life so seriously all the time.
I am thankful for the breaks i get at work boy do we need them.
I am thankful for the grace i have in dealing with rude customers.
I am thankful for the colours changing in the leaves.
I am most thankful for God because with out him,i wouldn't have any of this to be thankful for.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Taylot Swift---- Samm introduced me to her music and i love it

Thankful Thursday!!!!







This week I have so much to be thankful for!!
I am so thankful that we are able to go back to church,as i now work sunday nights.
I am so thankful that my daughter is wiling to help by cooking dinner if i prepare it.
I am so thankful that she is willing to take the time to help her brother with his homework.
I am so thankful that i am back at work and am provided with a stool as i can only stand for 15 mins at a time.
I am thankful that i finaly start pyhsio.
I am so thankful that god has given me the stength to admit i have anorexia.
I am thankful that god has shown me that i don't need to know why,that i can trust him 100%.
I am thankful for his neverending love.
I am thankful for the gifts he has given my children and how he has reached them in their own way.
I am thankful that my husband is now saved.
I am thankful for everything we have that he has provided for us.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

from lynne's blog

Three things that scare me:
1. rejection
2. not being a good mom
3. being yelled at!

Three people who make me laugh:
1. terri
2. jordan
3.samm

Three things I love:
1. God
2. friends/family
3. church family

Three things I don't like:
1.being sick right now
2. cramps
3. spiders

Three things I don't understand:
1. why my brother is terminally ill
2. why people are rude in line ups-im just a person doing the best i can
3. "keeping up with the joneses"

Three things on my desk
1. books
2. pictures
3. ornaments

Three things I am doing right now:
1. writing out my to do list
2. filling out this form
3. nothing else

Three things I want to do before I die: (Lord willin'!)
1. find a cure for duchenne's muscular dystrophy
2. go to paris with my sis
3. go to niagara falls

Three things I can do:
1.read
2. scrapbook
3.write

Three things I can’t do:
1. admit when i need help
2. jog anymore due to my hip
3. algebra

Three things you should listen to:
1. God's voice!
2. rain
3. your children when they have something to tell you even if it is the smallest thing

Three things you should never listen to:
1. gossip
2.
3.

Three shows I watched as a kid:
1. family ties
2. the littlest hobo
3. little house on the prairie

Hypothyroidism-underactive thyroid,a bit of a read

Hypothyroidism - Underactive Thyroid

Hypothyroidism means a reduced level of thyroid hormone (thyroxine). This can cause various symptoms, the most common being: tiredness, weight gain, constipation, aches, dry skin, lifeless hair and feeling cold. Treatment is usually easy by taking a tablet each day to replace the missing thyroxine. Treatment usually works well and symptoms usually go.





What is hypothyroidism?
Thyroxine is a hormone (body chemical) made by the thyroid gland in the neck. It is carried round the body in the bloodstream. It helps to keep the body's functions (the metabolism) working at the correct pace. Many cells and tissues in the body need thyroxine to keep them going correctly.

Hypothyroidism means that the thyroid gland does not make enough thyroxine. It is often called an underactive thyroid. This causes many of the body's functions to slow down.

(In contrast, if you have hyperthyroidism, you make too much thyroxine. This causes many of the body's functions to speed up.)

What are the symptoms of hypothyroidism?
Many symptoms can be caused by a low level of thyroxine. Basically, everything 'slows down'. Not all symptoms develop in all cases.

Symptoms that commonly occur include: tiredness, weight gain, constipation, aches, feeling cold, dry skin, lifeless hair, fluid retention, mental slowing, and depression.
Less common symptoms include: a hoarse voice, irregular or heavy menstrual periods in women, infertility, loss of sex drive, carpal tunnel syndrome (which causes pains and numbness in the hand), and memory loss or confusion in the elderly.
However, all these symptoms can be caused by other conditions, and sometimes the diagnosis is not obvious. Symptoms usually develop slowly, and gradually become worse over months or years as the level of thyroxine in the body gradually falls.

What are the possible complications of hypothyroidism?
If you have untreated hypothyroidism:

You may have an increased risk of developing heart disease. This is because a low thyroxine level causes the blood lipids (cholesterol, etc) to rise.
If you are pregnant, you have an increased risk of developing some pregnancy complications. For example: pre-eclampsia, anaemia, premature labour, low birth weight, stillbirth, and serious bleeding after the birth.
Hypothyroid coma (myxoedema coma) is a very rare complication.
However, with treatment, the outlook is excellent. With treatment, symptoms usually go, and you are very unlikely to develop any complications.

Who gets hypothyroidism?
About 1 in 50 women, and about 1 in 1000 men develop hypothyroidism at some time in their life. It most commonly develops in adult women, and becomes more common with increasing age. However, it can occur at any age and can affect anyone.

What causes hypothyroidism?
Autoimmune thyroiditis - the common cause
The most common cause is due to an 'autoimmune disease' called autoimmune thyroiditis. The immune system normally makes antibodies to attack bacteria, viruses, and other 'germs'. If you have an autoimmune disease, the immune system makes antibodies against certain tissues of your body.

With autoimmune thyroiditis, you make antibodies that attach to your own thyroid gland which affect the glands function. The thyroid gland is then not able to make enough thyroxine, and hypothyroidism gradually develops. It is thought that something triggers the immune system to make antibodies against the thyroid. The 'trigger' is not known.

Autoimmune thyroiditis is more common than usual in people with:

A family history of hypothyroidism caused by autoimmune thyroiditis.
Down's syndrome. Hypothyroidism develops in 1 in 3 people with Down's syndrome before the age of 25 years. Symptoms of hypothyroidism may be missed more easily in people with Down's syndrome. Therefore, some doctors recommend that all people with Down's syndrome should have an annual blood test to screen for hypothyroidism.
Turner's syndrome. Again, an annual blood test to screen for hypothyroidism is usually advised for people with this condition.
An enlarged thyroid gland (diffuse goitre).
A past history of Graves' disease, or thyroiditis following childbirth.
A personal or family history of other autoimmune disorders. For example, vitiligo, pernicious anaemia, Addison's disease, Type 1 diabetes, premature ovarian failure, coeliac disease, Sjogren's syndrome.
Some people with autoimmune thyroiditis also develop a swollen thyroid gland (goitre). Autoimmune thyroiditis with a goitre is called Hashimoto's disease.

People with autoimmune thyroiditis have a small increased risk of developing other autoimmune conditions such as vitiligo, pernicious anaemia, etc.

Surgery or radioactive treatment to the thyroid gland
These are common causes of hypothyroidism in the UK due to increasing use of these treatments for other thyroid conditions.

Other causes
Other causes of hypothyroidism are less common and include:

A side-effect to some medicines. For example, amiodarone and lithium.
Other types of 'thyroiditis' (thyroid inflammation) caused by infection or other rare conditions.
A pituitary gland problem is a rare cause. The pituitary gland that lies just under the brain makes a hormone called thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH). This stimulates the thyroid gland to make thyroxine. If the pituitary does not make TSH, then the thyroid cannot make enough thyroxine.
Some children are born with an underactive thyroid gland (congenital hypothyroidism).
How is hypothyroidism diagnosed?
A blood test can diagnose hypothyroidism. A normal blood test will also rule it out if symptoms suggest that it may be a possible diagnosis. One or both of the following may be measured:

Thyroid-stimulating hormone (TSH). This hormone is made in the pituitary gland. It is released into the bloodstream. It stimulates the thyroid gland to make thyroxine. If the level of thyroxine in the blood is low, then the pituitary releases more TSH to try and stimulate the thyroid gland to make more thyroxine. Therefore, a raised level of TSH means the thyroid gland is underactive and is not making enough thyroxine.
Thyroxine (T4). A low level of T4 confirms hypothyroidism.
Note: some people have a raised TSH but have a normal T4. This means that you are making enough thyroxine but the thyroid gland is needing extra 'stimulation' from TSH to make the required amount of thyroxine. In this situation you have an increased risk of developing hypothyroidism in the future. Your doctor may advise a repeat blood test every so often to see if you do eventually develop hypothyroidism.

Other tests are not usually necessary unless a rare cause of hypothyroidism is suspected. For example, tests of the pituitary gland may be done if both the TSH and T4 are low.

How is hypothyroidism treated?
The treatment is to take levothyroxine (thyroxine) tablets each day. This replaces the thyroxine which your thyroid gland is not making. Most people feel much better soon after starting treatment. Ideally, take the tablet on an empty stomach (before breakfast). This is because some foods rich in calcium or iron may interfere with the absorption of levothyroxine from the gut. (For the same reason, don't take levothyroxine tablets at the same time of day as calcium or iron tablets.)

What is the dose of levothyroxine?
Most adults need between 50 and 150 micrograms daily. A low dose is sometimes prescribed at first, especially in those over 60 or with heart problems, and is then gradually increased over a period of time. Blood tests are usually taken every 2-3 months, and the dose may be adjusted accordingly. The blood test measures TSH (see above). Once the blood TSH level is normal it means you are taking the correct amount of levothyroxine. It is then common practice to check the TSH blood level once a year. The dose may need adjustment in the early stages of pregnancy. Also, as you get into late middle age and older, you may need a reduced dose of levothyroxine.

Missed a tablet?
Everyone forgets to take their tablets from time to time. Don't worry as it is not dangerous to miss the odd forgotten levothyroxine tablet. You can take any missed doses as soon as you remember. However, you should try to take levothyroxine regularly each morning for maximum benefit.

How long is the treatment for?
For most people, treatment is for life. Occasionally, the disease process reverses. This is uncommon apart from the following:

Children. Sometimes hypothyroidism is a temporary condition in older children. (This is not so for children who are born with an underactive thyroid.)
Pregnancy. Some women develop thyroid imbalance after having a baby. If it occurs, it typically happens about three to six months after the birth. Often this lasts just a few months and corrects itself. Treatment is needed only in a small number of cases. However, afterwards it is wise to have a yearly blood test as there is an increased risk of developing autoimmune thyroiditis and long-term hypothyroidism in the future.
Are there any side-effects or problems from treatment?
Usually not. Levothyroxine tablets replace the body's natural hormone, so side-effects are uncommon. However, if you have angina, you may find that your angina pains become worse when you first start levothyroxine. Tell a doctor if this happens.

If you take too much levothyroxine it can lead to symptoms and problems of an over-active thyroid. For example, palpitations, diarrhoea, irritability, and sweating, and increases the risk of developing osteoporosis. This is why you need blood tests to check that you are taking the correct dose.

Other medicines may interfere with the action of levothyroxine. For example, carbamazepine, iron tablets, phenytoin, and rifampicin. If you start any of these medicines, or change the dose, then you may need to alter the dose of the levothyroxine. Your doctor will advise. Also, if you take warfarin, the dose may need to be altered if you have a change in your dose of levothyroxine.

Free prescriptions
If you have hypothyroidism, you are entitled to free prescriptions. This is for all your medicines, whether related to the hypothyroidism or not. Ask at your GP surgery for a form to fill in (form FP92A) to claim this benefit.

In summary
Hypothyroidism is common.
Symptoms develop gradually. They may be confused with other conditions.
Treatment with levothyroxine tablets is usually easy and effective.
Treatment is usually for life.
Have a blood test once a year if you take levothyroxine tablets once your dose has become stabilised.
Further help and advice

what gemstone are you??

Your Gemstone is Orange Saphire

Courageous, optimistic, and successful.
Your confidence helps you handle the ups and downs of life

Thursday, August 30, 2007

wow what a week to be thankful!!!




Well my medical mystery has been diagnosed with hypothryrodism-underactive thyroid gland.i used to weigh 160 now i,m at 107.and battling anorexia.However I am still going to work. So on to
THANKFUL THURSDAY

This week I am thankful for being able to go back to work,
I am thankful that I am invited to my sisters wedding,
I am thankful that my daughter's boyfriend of two years was allowed to come visit us for a week.
I am thankful that my husband was home for our 9th anniversary.
I am thankful that I get to be a big part of my friends baby's life.
I am thankful for the ipod that my husband got me,boy was he sneaky,he picked his own gift a new reciever for upstairs to watch t.v.
I am very thankful for the new car we purchased today.
But most of all I am thankful for God's love which is never ending,for all of the things we have been blessed would not have happened without his love and guidance

Sunday, August 26, 2007

my cousin had their baby boy!!!!!!

On august 22 my newest little member of my family was born.they names him Troy_____ parkinson.

Happy 9TH Anniversary Bill!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!August 27th

i LOVE YOU WITH EVERY OF MY BEING, YOU HAVE MADE ME HAPPY THROUGH ALL THE TOUGH TIMES AND IN SICKNESS AND HEALTH WE ARE STILL HERE 9 YEARS LATE.MANY MORE YEARS TO COME. LOVE YOU

Thursday, August 23, 2007

must be invisible or lost!!!!

hey everyone i'm stil here hanging in blogger land too as well as facebook.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

love the movie and the song

thankful thursday



Well wow what a week,i am so thankful that i had just a week with my girl.
I am so thankful that she knew what to do when i fel down our stairs and
knew what to do.
I am so thankful that my son will be returning home on sat as well as my
husband.
I am so thankful that the dr's spent so much time running tests and not giving
up till they found out why i was fainting,low blood pressure etc,I have Hypothyroidism an under-active thyroid a condition which the gland doesn't enough thyroid hormoneto regulate the needs of the body.
I am thankful for everyday that i have with my children and hubby.
I am thankful for being remminded to stop and smell the flowers.

a mystery solved???

Well after 3 weeks of fainting spells and tonnes of blood work and tests it appears that i have Hypothyroidism, also called under-active thyroid,is a conditionin which the tyroid gland doesn't produce enough thyroid hormone to regulate the needs of the body.So where does that leave me right now unfortunatly very sick have to go on meds for the rest of my life.However there still is the other problem with my blood that needs to be worked out to.I am so releaved to finally have an answer even though it was bad news.However life is way too short,so i will not be letting it control my life.Even if it means a new lifestyle all together.Can't wait for jordan and bill to come home on sat.

Monday, August 20, 2007

life..,

No nothing really going on here,just trying to get better and awaiting bill and jordans arrival home.Saturday after a week of meds and no fainting spells i fainted and went down a flight of stairs all i can say is ouch that really hurt.hope everyone has a great day. blessings

Friday, August 17, 2007

thankful thursday




Another week;
This week I am thankful that my mom,brother and stepdad were not hurt when they were in a car accident last Sat.
I am thankful that my daughter made it home safe even with a loong delay.
I am thankful that my youngest will be home on the 25th as well as my hubby.
I am thankful for my wonderful camera,so i can take such beautiful pics,which makes me not feel so homesick.

Thursday, August 16, 2007

When one loses their way?

I always thought I had things pretty together,lately im not so sure anymore.With the ending of summer coming I have never felt this homesick ever.I'n sure it hasn't helped with being as sick as i am.I would have come to cell tonight but i just feel i can't face anyone right now as i never know if I will faint or not.This has also done some damage within my feelings.I need help for anorexia,there i said it.Yes I am ashamed has i should know better.I feel safe at home or terri's but not too far.blessings and lots of love.

Friday, August 10, 2007



I can hardly believe that i missed my favorite post of all.
This week i have a lot to be thankful for my bestfriend and her
father for finding me when i fainted four times and believe ambulance rides are not fun.
I am thankful for the ambulance attendends and paramedics for their immediate help.
I am thankful to the drès who are taking such a watchful eye on me.
I am thankful that i have enough friends who are their as i can not be left alone at all.
But mostly i am thankful that my girl will be home tommorrow and my son on the 25th.

things could be looking better

Right now i have fainted to the poing of being taken to the hospital by ambulance not fun.All we know is that my heart rate is too low my sugar count is to low and i am lcosing blood cels and they donèt know why.So far i have had a b12 shot ouch,ièm on calcium folic acid and iron and well as dealing with my hip still.However with the downfal i am not allowed to be lfet alone at all.They are still running every test possible.the great news is my baby girl comes home tommorrow and my magoo on the 25th.right noe thankyou for keeping us inyour prayers.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

hi there;

I must say that life has been interesting in one week alone i passed out completly luckily my husbdan was home.Yesrterday i was so thankful to my bestfriedn who i told i would be back in an hour,her dad phoned her to tell her that we would meet at my house.They both knew something was wrong as i was found face down,tok paramedics a good full hour to wake me.I spent 6 hours in the hospital injuring the back of my right shoulder and landing on my hip again.they did a suger test i am 4.3 which is good but my calcium came back low and vitd.whn i went to the dr's they gave me a b12 shot which hurt.he also noticed my red and white cells are very low so calcium and iron and folic acid.i have more tests to do though.I just thankgod that terri and her dad were there.So other than that i am exited to have samm come home on sat and jord on the 25th.blessings.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

hi there

Hello there everyone!!!!

Where to begin,well i don't have cancer but they have diagnosed me with Regional Dystrophy Pain Syndrom.Right now i am on tonnes of meds which make me pretty dizzy and i am mostly on bed rest.My husband will be leaving anyday now.My daughter Samm is having fun in P.g. My son was suppossed to be home on the 1st however he is being kept till the 25th so he is very upset.He has 4 appointments he can't miss however his father doesn't seem to care what is in the best interest for him and unfortunatly the appointments can't be changed as they were booked in may.I am thankful for my wonderful bestest friends terri and jay,lynne with whom i would be lost.So working with his worker to bring him home sooner.Hope everyone has a great week end.blessings from our house to yours.I would also comment more but we are in the search for a new computer.!!!
Link: sunshine about time

Wednesday, August 01, 2007



I realize that i am one day early"
I am so thankful that i don't have cancer in my leg but my battle isn'd over has i have regional dystropy pain syndrom.
I am thankful my hubby came home as i am beridden and on crushes.
I am thankful that my children are having a saf trip as i miss them so much.
I am thankful that my couisin only has 10 days till she has her baby.
I am most thankful for all the wonderful support i have fron my beautifl friends.
As well as the many wonderful caring people i have met through blogging,you give me hope and love as well as inspriration.

god's will

please enjoy everyday as you don't know what tommorrow brings!!!!

good and bad news

well it has been a long hard summer spending time on crushes to find out i don't have cancer in my leg however i have regional dystropy pain syndrom.Samm is now in p.g.for 2 weeks and jord well he won't be home till the 25th.Lord only knows weither i will have to have surgery in 2 weeks.I want to thankyou for all your heartfelt support.luv you guys.As it is i am on medrest and don't know what to do when my hubby goes to camp.lost,lonely and scared.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

thankful thursday



Well back to my fav post;
This week i am thankful for very understanding drs.
I am very thankful for my bestfriend and her keeping me sane when i want to give up and cry.
I am very thankful to Terri's Dad for all of his help and understanding and making sure i am eating.
I am very thankful for the many prayers that we have recieved.
Blessings from our house to yours,

Still not much happening!!!

Now i don't want anyone to worry but my bursitis has not healed,do i am in bed rest,with not a lot to do .When i am up i'm hobbling on crushes,which is no fun.The drs are doing a bonescan and biopsy as i might have cancer in my right leg.Bill is home for a few days right now as i am an emotional wreck.I like being able to do things but lately i ahve to listen to my drs orders.so today I am asking that you keep us in your prayers.Darci thankyou for the mag i will hopefully be putting in an order.If anyone wants to come over feel free to.., tired of being lonely.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

on bed rest!!!

Well not much is happening right now.I was given a cortizone shot two days ago and it is swelling and i have a fever,very lonley right now as my computer is not working al though I have an offer for a new computer,so yes chris i will need your help again.Would love to have company as i am on crutches and an mot very mobile.I am also home alone to fend for myself,so if you are bored or want to visit come on over.thankyou blessings i live in 35-4618 haugland.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Thankful thursday!!!





It seems like forever since i posted;
Here Goes
I am so very thankful that my hubby is home from camp right now,
I am so thankful to my great friend Terri for always being there,
I am so thankful that my children are having fun on vacation,even though they are miles from home,
I am thankful for the sun that we have been having,
I am thankful that my mom and I are slowly rebuliding our relationship,
I am thankful for my friends,
I am thankful for my hubby's love and understanding and support,
I am thankful for all the friends i have met at work,and on blogging to.
I am thankful for the beautiful family i have been given.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Summer heat and Fun!!!

Finally we have some wonderful sun.We haven't been doing much lately,well i haven't other than work and housework.Samm and Jord have been nonstop busy on their trip so far.Can not believe how quiet the house is.Bill is home for about a week so hopefully we will make it to church this week.I just love summer but like many I have allergies so no enjoying flowers for me only from a distance.Also allergic to be bees so i have to be careful,thankgod for an epie pen.A bit of fun was when Lynne and I went to pick up Bill from Bob Quinn Airstrip nothing like getting stuck for 4 hours as the gas station was closed at the junction(lol).Awaiting the arrival of my cousins baby can hardly wait.

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Aahh a post at last.

well summer has gottewn off to a great start.The kids made it down safe to Vancouver Island.Bill is still in camp so that leaves me with a very quite house.Work has been going great,however my hip isn't i am so frustrated with it.Our computer is up and running great but i have my fingers crossed that it continues.Just waiting for the sunshine to come out.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Back to Work..,

Well yesterday I went back to work and had a great time,glad I am back.Our Computer is down again and I am soo frustrated.So hopefully I am back online soon.Samm got her L today!!!!!Tommorrow she will be recieving an award from Cal even though we don't know what for.Then i have Jord's award ceremony to.On friday i say good bye to the kids for summer,, hopefully I am working lots to keep busy.As i miss them so much when they are gone.that is all for now,see you when I come back. blessings

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Thankful Thursday..,



This has been such a long week feel of so many unexpected events.Sometimes I can honestly not believe how many things you can have on the go.Within this week alone we have been surronded be exams(Samm),Jordan getting geared up for gr.8 I can not remember how many meetings we have already had regarding school and making sure he is ready.We are also getting ready for Bill heading off to camp again as well as the kids annual trip for the summer and to make life even more fun I am going back to work on Monday after a long medical leave.
With that I shall begin..,
I am very thankful to everyone who is involved with Jordan and his education by trying to ease him into gr.8.
I am very thankufl that my husband was home when we got the news about Jord's friend passing away.
I am very thankful to be here to see my daughter go into gr.12 in sept,i couldn't be happier.
I am very thankful that I can return to work after a 4 month medical leave.
I am very thankful for everyone involed with Jord and his friends as they try to come to terms together over the loss of their friend.
I am very thankful for so many things in my life but it always come back to God,as without him nothing is possible.
Nehemiah 4:14
I will not be afraid of my adversaries,but i will remember the Lord,
Who is great and aewsome.
Blessings

I will remember you..,

What a Week..,

Many of you have heard about the boy who passed away this weekend.With time and patience we now know what really happened.The boy who passed away was named John and he was a student at Cassie Hall in gr.7.We were told it was rock pile that he fell from when in fact it wasn't that at all.He fell between 200 and 3oo feet off a cliff.
No one knows why he was there or what he was doing.This has impacted our life really hard as John was a real close friend of Jordan's. He was a really good person,as well as funny,caring and understanding I know this as he was a regular visitor to our house.Jordan's other three friends are in the same place as Jordan is now and that is trying to understand and make sense of the accident that took their friends life. Blessings from our house to yours,

Monday, June 18, 2007

Happy Father's Day..,

I have always in some way been very emotional when it comes to our children,but nothing could have prepared us for this today.When it comes to our kids we all want is to protect them and keep them from harm.However as much as we want there will be times when things happen that are not forseen.Now today started out great.We did our father's day thing,then Jordan went to play with his friends,Samm and I went to Save-on and bill slept.Not too much out of the ordinary,until I am standing inline waiting to pay when the cell phone goes off.So i answer it and it was Bill telling me that I needed to come home as one of Jord's best friends had fallen on a rock pile Saturday Morning and he split his head open and passed away at the hospital.I was in complete shock and then the tears came.Barely managing to get home all i could think of was how are we going to console Jordan? He is taking it very hard and still can not believe that he is gone.I too can't wrap my head around this.I still kept telling myself how could this be.Reality sank back in when the principle phoned to tell us as she was phoning his bestfriends.Jordan being one of them.They are having a memorial for his friend at school and grieve counselors will be there as well.As hard as this is for Jordan and his friends they have gone to see his family to see if there was anything they could do.Now many of you who know us know that Jord is already in counseling learning how to deal with his anger and his anxiety and how to handle his emotions and I know I am afraid that this will set him back.We are really trying to be careful as not to upset him but what do you say to your child who just lost one of his bestfriends.I am not one to ask for prayer,however I am asking for prayer for Jordan during this time. Blessings

Meme..,

MEME
.1.One of your scars..,how did you get it? A scar under my left eye when a football flew into my window and glass was everywhere(i was 3)
...2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? a velvet picyure of a girl praying,a calendar,pics of my brother,pics of the four of us and one of samm and jordan and oh yes the pic from anne gedde
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? i grind my teeth something awful,talk in my sleep.
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?all types
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? 8:45 a.m..
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?!sleep
7. WHAT or WHO DO YOU MISS?my grandma parkinson
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?digital camera..
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5 foot 3 and a 3/4
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? yes!!!!
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? not at all
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? my son,when we had to console him this father's day after hearing one of his best friends passed away.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PERFUME FOR THE OPPOSITE GENDER?too many too chose from
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? dark hair and dark eyes
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING/ BEING PROPOSED TO? already done
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? allergic to caffiene,since i had a bad scare from too much i would have to say v8 splash.
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?hawaiin with shrimp..
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? nachos
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? no how gross
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU? okay not that i remember but a baby ring with my initals
22. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? i would like to think so
E YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?not sure but i am flexable
24 and 25..where did you go?! .... they musta been sick questions!
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? yes
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?2 cats 2 turtles!
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS GOING TO LEAVE YOU?not sure
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? say it....
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:8
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?doe sit really matter?
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?teri
33.WHAT ANNOYS YOU THE MOST?when people chew with their mouth open
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF YOUR HOME COUNTRY? yes,
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?short fuse,too many too mention.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS? no.
37. FIRST JOB? nanny
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?yes and sorry ryan o
41. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? nothing
40. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? yeppers
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOSt? my clean house
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?nope
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? my dad to come visit
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?wanted three.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? nope but my dad used to tell me that i was names after suntan lotion.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?okay i will admit it i do now and then
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?fructose or pantene)
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? love it
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?smoked turkey breast.
52. ANY BAD HABITS? who doesn't have any?
53.WHAT IS THE MOST EMBARRASING CD ON YOUR SHELF? why would i be embarrased!
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?of course.
55. DO LOOKS MATTER? this old age question?
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?i scream into a pillow.....
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? in a far far place
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?barbie dolls.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? 50+
62. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A KID?who was that?.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?i try not to.
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?mac and cheese
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? not looking.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? tan or tan-tan or sis
67. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER?celine dion,bryan adams,mercy me i could go on all night.
68. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?house gray's anatomy,sci,etc.
69. WHAT WAS YOUR ACT/SAT SCORE? good enough for harvard.
70. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES? yep
80. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE VACATION SPOT? surf side =qualicum
90. WHATS THE FASTEST YOU HAVE GONE IN A CAR? 130km
91. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU FLIPPED OFF?bill lol

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Thankful Thursday.., sorry it is one day early.

There is alot I am thankful for:
Romans 12;12
I will rejoice in hope,perserve in afflication,
and continue steadfastly in prayer.




I am thankful for family as always as without them I would have no life or sense of being.
I am thankful for flowers blooming(even if they affect my allergies).
I am very thankful for all the great friends I have even if i don't see them often.
I am thankful for satelite and internet so i can keep up with family, friends and the news.
I am thankful for new medical research being done,even though there is no cure for my brother.
I am thankful for all the doctors,nurses that help my brother.
I am thankful to the Vancouver Canucks and all of their support,believe me Canuck Place is awesome.
I am also thankful for the many many encouraging thoughts left on our blog.

Summer Fun!!!

With the flooding hopefully behind us..,we can start to dry off and think about summer.I love summer despite that I have seasonal allergies.Not to forget those pesky bees that love me,even though i am allergic.Although I must agree the kids love summer now that school is wrapping up.Congrats to you Samm on finishing Gr.11 you go girl the sky's the limit.Congrast's to you Jordan on finishing Gr.7 and entering Skeena wow lots of changes remember the sky's the limit.Now i know I am not ready for this but i have to be cause weither i am or not they are growing up.So as they wrap up school for another year we also get ready for the summer.This year alot of changes for us.Jordan is getting ready for another summer on the island,Samm down to the island and P.g. again,myself into physio and gradually back to work and Bill's coming and going from camp.So it looks like we will be very busy.I honestly can't wait.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Thankful Thursday!!!

Well today is Thursday and as I am about to post everything I am thankful for,so much has happened in our community that I wanted to share that as well.Many of you know from the news about the slide,the flooding and how we are basically cut off from all the surronding communities.Now as much as this as everybody worried about their homes and yards we have a real sense of community happening and it is awesome to see how so much bad could bring so much good.Everybody helping each other with sandbagging,evacuating and just being there for each other.



So I begin;
I am thankful for strangers helping strangers,
I am thankul for all the crews working day and night to make sure everyone is safe.
I am thankful for the updated news reports.
I am thankful for all our friends and family for all their phone calls making sure we are all okay.
I am thankful that the rain seems to be clearing up for the time being.
I am thankful for my daughters big heart in helping with sandbagging as one of her friends had to work fast to safe their home.
I am thankful for my kids understanding and their unconditional love.
I am thankful for my camera as without it I wouldn't be able to take pics and send them to our family ensuring that we are safe.

Monday, June 04, 2007

What an awesome evening!!!

Tonight I went to Michelle's(be) with Lynne and a few other ladies to check out Shaklee.I must say it totally made me think of how harmful some products are that I use everyday.It was also fun to get out of the house for an evening. It was great meeting Jenny finally and hanging out with everyone who could make it.I can not believe that we are getting rain now,not the beaming sun is better for flooding.I have 2 more weeks before Bill comes home,hoping we will like the products from Shaklee that i like and am considering switching to.Although I can't see why he wouldn't.Lacross is heading into playoffs,which run into our G.T.T. weekend.So not too sure yet which we will be going to.As that is also when Bill comes home(15th),can't wait.He really loves his new job and I couldn't be happier for him.It is a big change for all of us and we are all adjusting well.Two new friendships and family.Blessings from our house to yours.

Saturday, June 02, 2007

Where should I spend the summer?




You Should Spend Your Summer at the Beach



You're a free spirit who is always thinking of new ways to have fun.

And you don't just love summer... you live for it.

So, you really should blow off your responsibilities and head to the beach!

What a song..,

My bestfriend played this song for me today and It is very neat and different.

Friday, June 01, 2007

Lovely Weather!!!!!!

I just love the weather we are having.I can't believe that summer is just around the corner.I often wonder if everything we go through is really a test from God for his purpose.I know that God only gives us what we can handle but honestly it is something that i struggle with everyday.I know that with everything we go through is a learning process.I'm not sure that I can thank God for putting me through certain things as i often cannot understand why??With my brother I find it hard that he was called for the life he has or was givin.If it was to teach us that life is short,well i already knew that.How do I find Joy in this situation?You see I can't,as all my brother knows is pain and suffering.Why on earth would God want that for someone.Why would he want my Mom to blame herself,as she sure does.What is my brother suppossed to learn? We have all learnt so much about his illnes and what to expect,but it doesn't change anything,for he will still never walk,get married or have children.I have prayed and prayed and for this situation it hasn't helped.That is why sometimes I feel our prayers are left unanswered.Till the end of time I will always ask why,why him.

Thursday, May 31, 2007

A new and uprising star .,


Carrie Underwood..,please don't forget to remember me

Like it,love it,,,

Thankful Thursday

Samm


Jordan







Just in time for my favorite post always,

I am thankful first and foremost that we have our computer back.
I am thankful for all the nice weather we are having.
I am thankful that Bill likes his job and can phone home,even if it is for only 10mins.
I am thankful for our children and how they have chosen to help out around the house.
I am thankful for Bill's never ending support and his unconditional love.
I am thankful for understanding Dr's and all their help.
I am thankful for all of our great friends.
I am thankful for family.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Good-bye for Now..,

This week has brought many changes and challenges and without Terri and Lynne and guidance and advice from four special people in our lives I would have crumbled.I know as well that without God or our faith none of this would have happened.I always thought that God was punishing us for whatever reason,however I realize how wrong I was.With all the praying and tears he was there as he always is.I mean there has to be a reason why Footprints is my favorite poem.Bill will be leaving on Tuesday for his job has head cook,which entails him to be gone alot.Jordan almost broke his arm in Lacross,thankfully he only sprained it and had to wear a splint for just two days.He has a game tonight and of course he will be playing.I am still healing but very slowly.Samm has been very busy with school and youth.Somehow through everything the four of us have become very close.So I could keep writing and bore you with all the ups and downs since my last post,but I don't need to.I will explain when I started writing my blog and i am going to be honest I felt thatI needed to have people comment on my blog for if they didn't I thought no one cared or i wasn't interesting enough.Now It doesn't bother me,as I know people care and if they don't, well they don't.As our computer is sick and in the shop I won't be able to post,so I leave you with our blessings.

Thankful Thursday oops a day late..,






Well this week has brought so many changes,challenges and I am proud to say that during all the tears,doubt and sadness my faith has been renewed.Here goes
I'm thankful for the sun and even the rain(love dancing in the rain)lol
I'm thankful for the flowers that are blooming,even though my allergies have started.
I'm thankful for my two beautiful children,without whom I would be lost.
I'm thankful for my husband and how supportive,and understanding he is.
I'm thankful for the wonderful families we have even though we are so far away,we love you.
I'm thankful for the wonderful friendships we have,and the opportunity to make more.
I'm thankful for my Husbands new job even though it takes him away for long periods of time.(head camp cook).
I'm thankful that my son's cat came home.
I'm thankful that my Uncle is going to be okay,for without him my life would never be the same,i love you.
I'm really thankful for god's covering over my family and friends.
I'm very thankful for wonderful leadership within our church and all the support we have had during the last few weeks.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Life is Fragile....,

Believer or not,Saved or not.We hang onto the belief that nothing could ever happen to us unless it was in God's plans,that he has already written our lives and our children's.Sometimes it is so hard to really wrap that around my head,when I see so many people hurting,suffering,in accidents and deaths.It always sounds weird to me when peeople say we were born to die? I know that God only gives us what we can handle..,but what if we can't?Then we turn to God and pray and lay it down at the cross.Honestly there are days upon days that I just don't want to get up for i have no idea or control what will happen on that particular day.If there was one question i could ask God(in person) it would be why??? did you choose this life life or path for me.I have recently just started with the arrival kit,so it is making me think long and hard about life and what is next.Lately I can't even watch the news without getting so overemotional.Where has all the respect and consideration for another.If you could ask God one question what would it be???

"Faith"

"Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
-- New Testament, Hebrews 11:1

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Happy Mother's Day Mom

Hope you had a great day.I love you.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B8smdUcxPSo

Happy Mother's Day!!!!! To All You Mother's Out there!!!

What is left of the marble cake they made after church..,yummy
The card they made,
The card and the carnations.

Surprises not one that really likes them.However after a loong day at church,grocery shopping,an arguement with the neighbour and getting kicked out of the house by the kids,I really couldn't take anymore.This is what I walked into;God bless their hearts

i love this one to..,

another song,

proably posted it already but i love it..,http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e20YoYkCDSM

Saturday, May 12, 2007

1. *What is your occupation?* cashier,licensed home care worker
2. *What color are your socks right now.rarely wear them
3. *What are you listening to right now? not sure
4. *What was the last thing that you ate? cake a baby shower
5. *Can you drive a stick shift?*of course autos are borring
6. *If you were a crayon, what color would you be?* burgundy or purple
7. *Last person you spoke to on the phone?* lynne
8. *How old are you today?* ????
9. *Favorite drink? --alcoholic or non-alcoholic????--* raspberry iced tea
10. *What is your favorite sport to watch?* Hockey...Ice Skating
11. *Have you ever dyed your hair?*yes
12. *Pets?* 3 cats two turtles
13. *Favorite food?* smoked salmon,lasagne fruit
14. *What was the last movie you watched?* Departed
15. *Favorite day of the year?* oct 3 ,feb23
16. *What do you do to vent anger?*talk to Samm ,lynne
17. *What was your favorite toy as a child?* Daddy's tools
18. *What is your favorite fall or spring?*. sorry Autumn has my heart
19. *Hugs or kisses?* Hugs are great
20. *Cherries or Blueberry?* neither
21. *Jeans or Skirt?* Jeans
22. *Who is most likely to respond?*no clue
23. *Who is least likely to respond?*no clue
.24. *Living arrangements?* townhouse 3 bedrooms with husband and two children
25. *When was the last time you cried?* Today
.26. *What is on the floor of your closet?* boxes ..
27. *Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending/tagging this to?* I'm sending this to no one..I'm posting it!
28. *What did you do last night?* went to the river with Lynne and jordan's Lacross
29. *Favorite smells?*rain,ocean,vanilla and mulberry
30. *What inspires you?* different things,people,31. *What are you afraid of?* water33. *Favorite dog breed:* Bouvier
34. *How many years at your current job?* 3 months(6) 3 med leave
35. *Favorite day of the week?* saturday
36. *How many cities or towns have you lived in?* 4
38. *Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery?*a tractor and a hay bailer
40. *Do you have a house phone that is NOT cordless?* Yup
41. *10 inches of snow or 100 degree weather?*10 inches of snow

tagged from lynne

have you ever.....
Leaped from a tall building?: gotta get me there first
Worn your clothes backwords?: nope
Died your hair blue?: no
Danced the funky Chicken?: chicken dance who hasn't
Danced in puddles?: yup.
Walked into something in front of someone?:always
Been to Europe?: never.
Watched a Mary Kate n Ashley movie/tv show?:of course
Warn two different coulored socks to work?:that i've done
Shot a jelly bean out your nose?: uh no
Asked a guy out?: no. never.
Been stoked by a spider?: stoked? what?.
Sang in public?: yes alot of leads in school choir
Had a full house marathon?: no
Stayed up all night talking with a girlfriend?: of course.....
Painted a picture?: yes
Gotten someone else to take that picture of that cute guy, so you don't look like a complete idiot?: no...
Eaten snails?: unfortunatly with bill's profession yes
Bought something with a friend that you still have,like a charm bracelet, necklace , etc?: yes of course 15 years ago and we still have them....
Walked barefoot, when its really hot out?: yeppers
Been given roses?:yes but only yellow don't like red ones
TAG YOUR IT!!!!

don't like my pic taken

It was a bit cold down by queensway .
Trying to not notice the camera,
I think this is the same as the first one,
This one had to put in for lynne(l0l) had to be there.
Okay people who know me well know i really don't like getting my pic taken but i thought i would let lynne prove to me that i have nothing to fear from it.So a couple of shots.

Jordan's team won two games in a row..,

However not without a trip to the er tonight with a very badly bruised and sprained elbow.He will be fine just needed to wear a sling till Sunday.Tonight Lynne and I went for a much needed hobble walk tonight and it was exactly what I needed fresh air.Bill will be leaving after the holidays may long weekend as head cook in the third camp.I am still on a medical leave and am getting more and more bored and frustrated.I really don't like being laid up,it has been since feb2nd and has lonliness ever set in.I have been reading a lot,doing a collage book,spending time with the kids, going to lacross and spending time with Bill and with Lynne.So between er and the doc's this is what my life has become.Now I am not complaining but i thought i had alot more friends and am frustrated at being left out of a lot things as this is killing what little social life i had.I believe that God in his time will heal me,i have complete faith in that.A person can only press in so far,before they come to a point and wonder why??? keep trying????I also know with my walls i can be very unreachable or seem like a snob,well that is not the case,i'm actually shy and in secure in big groups,however church is really helping with that.I love our church and consider everyone family there.I have said before and i will say it again anytime if anyone needs help just ask me,and i will do my best.If you need to talk,call me I'm actually wiser that thought to be.Remember I have lived my life in the world for 30 years and have seen alot,been through alot,things i will never forget.So on to one of my favorite songs right now.

Friday, May 11, 2007



Well it is Thrusday and i have plenty to be thankful for this week.
I am thankful that I am starting to learn to trust in God more and understand his ways.
I am thankful that my brother is still here with us.
I am thankful that my children are finally over with their nasty throat infections.
I am thankful so far that all my son has suffered from in Lacross is a few bruises and that he enjoys it.
I am thankful that I can see God moving and working within the four of us.
I am thankful that i was allowed to be with my bestfriend when she had her precious baby.
I am thankful for all the people that care and love us.
I am thankful that my walls are slowly coming down and my depression is getting better.
I am thankful that my husband finally got the job he wanted in camp even though he'll be gone 21 days at a time.
I am also thankful for the comments i recieve on my blog.

it's been a week wow!!!


Been playing with the camera here a couple samples.(above)
I can not believe it has been a week since i have last posted.Well not much is happening still on bed rest,both Samm and Jordan are getting over that awful throat infection.Good and bad Bill got the camp job he was waiting for so 21 days in and 10 out.AS for me i have no idea when i will be going back to work or if surgery is involoved.Wow can you believe the crazy weather we are having as weird as it is love it.

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Thank-Full Thursday!!!

<


So with today being Thursday,it's time to do my favorite post of the week.
I am thankful that God has trusted within us,to raise up Samantha and Jordan in his ways.
I am thankful for great grades,despite Jordan's dyslexia.
I am thankful for all the understanding,patience and caring that the nurses and doctors have for my family in a true time of uncertantity.
I am thankful for bill,the husband that God hand chose for me.
I am thankful for all his hard work around the house and taking on more than his share as I am on bedrest.
I am thankful that our children are helping and pitching in when needed.
I am thankful for my friendships,3 in particular and the many more i have gained.
With all this time on bedrest i am thankful for as it has brought me to a new level with God and my walk.
Thank-you to everyone who commented on my blog last week,when I didn't get the chance to.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

well the baby has arrived:






After being 6 days late and a four hour labour,my bestfriend had her baby boy yesterday at 6:12p.m. weighing 6lbs and 15 ouncesand 18and a half inches long.mom and baby are doing well.His name is cameron and he is just the sweetest little thing.Now just have to wait for my couisin to have his in August.I just love newborns,the smell.how tiny all their fingers and toes are.Babies are just such a blessing.there is Cameron with his big brother and jordan's best friend.More good news.,okay it bites that the canucks lost but Jordan scored his first goal in Lacross tonight.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

thankful thursday

well this is new for me so i hope it works.



What am thankful today is our daughter had asafe to Vanouver and back,
I am thnkful so far that our son has not been hurt in lacrosse,
I am thanful that my terminally ill brother is still with us(19),
I am so thankful for my husband,
I am thankful for finally after 17 years having my Dad and sisters in my life,
I am so thankful for our church family as with only the four of us being here,they have become family.
I am so thankful for all the friends i made through blogging.

confused no more over birks

here are the two i'm trying to decide over.Lynne likes the red ones.




here are the two i'm trying to decide over

Monday, April 23, 2007

Confusion over Birks..,by Joni and gwen!!!!!lol




Now normally I only wear the ones shown beside,however now i'm confused as to which ones this year!!! Help I need advice