When one loses their way?

I always thought I had things pretty together,lately im not so sure anymore.With the ending of summer coming I have never felt this homesick ever.I'n sure it hasn't helped with being as sick as i am.I would have come to cell tonight but i just feel i can't face anyone right now as i never know if I will faint or not.This has also done some damage within my feelings.I need help for anorexia,there i said it.Yes I am ashamed has i should know better.I feel safe at home or terri's but not too far.blessings and lots of love.