sometimes you finally have to let the past go

What a song to let the past go once and for all.Saw James on Oprah he was awesome.Quick fact Did you know he was on of the Queens bodyguards?

What a weekend; got to drive

Well after being sick I finally had an awesome time,a girls' night out.It started with a scavenger hunt,then cosmic bowling,then to the bar ,but i came home not into the bar scene at all.Jordan and his friend went swimming,samm and kelly went to the artful cup,oh and the guys had a guy night.These were with great friends that we know outside of church.I still can't believe it that i got a strike with my eyes closed.pics coming soon.I know I know I didn't make it to church as i hurt my back just a little.Plus i had to catch up on my housework.That sick feeling just won't go away,but i'm fighting it hard,i won't let it beat me.

cell

Well i did it I went to cell tonight and it felt great being there.All the nervousness i had dissappeared when we got there.I am definatly going to try to make it more often.It was just so uplifting and what i needed.Maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel after all.

my lovely sisters

Well everyone has heard so much about my sisters,that i thought i would write about them.My younger sister is Cheryl and she is 27 days youbger than my brother.She graduated in june 2006. She has met her one true love.She just finished a cosmotology course and found a job almost right away.Now my youngest sister is only 13,she is into the 4-h club and is a vegetarian,i haven't met her yet but i will this xmas.I can't wait

Vitamin C - Graduation Song

this song always brings back great memories

friends forever

Sometimes i wonder what really makes a friend a great friend one that doesn't fade in and out of your life.Jordan got that chance to meet up with friends that i have known since they were born.They are from the same hometown as us and moved from here almost 4 years ago now.

Samm'a true love

Samm and Shane;
What can I say they look adoable don't they.I am glad that they have found each other.It is kind of a small world when I tell you that his family lives on the same street as my parents in P.G. and our brothers graduated together.

what a week

Well not much is happening with us,I had a relapse and on top of that i caught a cold/flu it has been almost a week now,jordan came home with it on tuesday.Bless my husband as i say this please don't come to close,sleep facing away from me i don't want it.lol Samm has been a very busy bee since going back to school,wow I don't ever remember being that busy in gr.11 as samm says oh mom you are so cool but please get with the times.Am i imagining this but doesn't it seem that when you are sick there just seems to be more housework to do.We finally made the switch to telus enhanced highspeed wow what a difference,no more interuptions.Bill has finally started physio for his back,looks like he goes back Oct 27th. But all in all life is great.When I look around me I am so blessed by God ,my husband ,children,family and our church family.Everyone have a great day. Bestfriends since they were four.

From a great friend,had to share

Seeing Your PerfectionLetting Your Light Shine
We are each born into this world with unique gifts. Within us is a glimmer of the divine, a light that can potentially make the world a more beautiful place. But in many, that light lies dormant, snuffed out by fears and feelings of inadequacy. To spark it is to attract attention, face the possibility of rejection or the responsibility of success, and risk being labeled immodest. Yet when we undermine the light by hiding our aptitudes and quashing our dreams, we deny ourselves and others a wealth of experiences. Your abilities are a part of who you are and when you take pride in them, you affirm the love, esteem, and trust with which you view yourself. Moreover, as you express the light within, you grant others permission to do the same, freeing them to explore their own talents. For some, we are taught to hide our light from the world since childhood. Relatives caution us that the professions associated with our aptitudes are unattainable. Our peers may be envious of our skills and thus overly critical of the activities we instinctively enjoy. And authority figures admonish us to be humble and avoid showing off. But there is a vast chasm that separates those who let their light shine and those who seek only to draw attention to themselves. When you dare to share your light with the world, the beauty and perfection of your soul become clearly visible. You become a whole being-the literal embodiment of your vast potential. Whether you are a wonderful dancer, a first-rate cook, quick with numbers, or a natural negotiator, you'll come to understand that you do the world no favors when you hold yourself back. If you have hidden your light for so long that it has shrunk to an ember, make a list of everything you do well, however impractical, silly, or seemingly inconsequential. Then ask yourself how you can positively utilize those abilities in your daily life. The gifts you were born with were not granted to you arbitrarily. While you may never discover what impact your light has had on others, you can be certain that when you embrace your talents and share them with others, you will spread illumination in the world.

found it on starla's blog thought it was fun,crazy answers for me

This is Fun!
The Name GameI found this on another person's blog...thought it was fun!
1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (your first pet and the street that you live on) tramps eby
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mom's side, your favourite candy)elanor candy bananas
3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your middle name)t.lyn
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favourite colour, favourite animal) burgundy dalamation
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)-lynn campbell river
6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 2 letters of mom's maiden name)McRtamo,how do you pronounce that one???
7. SUPERHERO NAME: ("the", your favourite colour, favourite drink) the burgundy icetea
8. NASCAR NAME: (the firstname of both your grandfathers)david vernon
9. FUTURISTIC NAME: (the name of your favourite perfume/cologne and the name of your favourite shoes)ckone flipflops
10. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother/father's middle name and the next name you hear on the tv/radio/talk)louisesponge bob ,jordan is home sick and watching spongebob

arizona and i dedicate this one too...,

Well I had a very great day yesterday.You see I was on a mission to find a new place to move to when lynne bless her heart came with me.We went all over the southside and the third can that she missed was an arizona ice tea,and we both thought is that where God wants us to move.So we continue on our travels,go to the bottle depot and guess what another arizona can.Now i'm really thinking what is God saying to us.Then we went to the warehouse where I decided that i had to have the green binder well the whole display came down on both of us,it was such a riot.I am fighting this horrible head and chest cold so i didn't make it to church.

tagged again

tag again
1. If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be? Vancouver Island
.2. What's your favorite article of clothing? my gold's gym hoodie,finally found it
!3. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex? eyes
4. What's the last CD that you bought? James Blunt Back to Bedlam
"5. Where's your favorite place to be? the ocean.6. Where is your least favorite place to be? in an out house7. What's your favorite place to be massaged? my back
8. Strong in mind or strong in body? do i have to answer that? lol
9. What time do you wake up in the morning? between 8 and 10 am.10. What is your favorite kitchen appliance? microwave.11.
What makes you really angry? inconsiderate, impatient people in a line-up
12. If you could play any instrument, what would it be?piano....
13. Favorite colors? , , browns, blues,pinks,purples, burgundy, ...
14. Which do you prefer...suv
!15. Do you believe in an afterlife?of course
16. Favorite children's book?velveteen rabbit,which you can't find anymore.
17. What is your favorite season? autumn
18. What is your least favorite household chore? cleaning the bathroom
19. If you could have one super power, what would it be? to be a healer through god's hands
20. If you have a tattoo, none...yet.
21. Can you juggle? no too clumsy lol
22. The one person from your past that you wish you could go back and talk to?my grandma,even though i hear her alot saying what are you doing now young lady
23. What's your favorite day? friday
24. What's in the trunk of your car? what car????.
25. Which do you prefer, sushi or hamburger? neither

life with kids

Well one has to wonder,what God's master plan is for one's self.Being a teenage Mom I was faced with a lot of challenges.I have no regrets in having either of my children as young as i did.I gave up Harvard(yes i was accepted),but I look at that wasn't what God's plan was for me at that time.If I had known when I was younger about the muscular dystrophy gene I carry I would not have had any children.A few of my friends were lucky they had the support of their families I had noone,till my son was born at 22.Then two years later I was all alone again only one friend stayed with me through it all and she is now my children's godmother.She has always wanted children of her home but after trying and trying they placed it in god's hands and said if it is meant to be it will.I suffered a really bad miscarriage and thought i would never find the strength to get through till my grandma told me remember your faith,never knew what she meant but boy do i now.God kept speaking to me about helping my bestfriend have her dream come true,I offered to be her surrogate but it was too expensive and didn't want put any strain on our friendship.Which never would have happened.It just amazes me how when a couple tries and tries nothing and then when you least expect it and aren't trying you are givin this amazing gift.So if anyone knows anything about being a teen mom and doing it alone with two young children I do.Children are truly a gift from God. Another blessing is my wonderful hubby Bill ,for excepting our children and loving them. For he has taught me what family is.I am very blessed in having knowing my grandparents.I am very blessed by my children,hubby,family,friends and our church family.

I will not let love and truth leave me;I will bind them around my neckand write them on the tablet of my heart. Proverbs 3:3

missing cell

Well what I can say other than I am really getting dissapointed about not going to cell.I miss everyone so much,however working till 7 at night doesn't help.Bill and I are moving soon we have a place to look at,tommorrow and it is a whole house.Bill also has an opportunity to work under my uncle in Maple Ridge who is a chef and by working under him he will get his red seal ticket which means he will be able to work anywhere in the world.It will take him two to three years and the kids and I are staying behind.That way Samm can finish school here. It will be hard but we have been praying over this for a long time and god is guiding us in this direction. I am scared of us being seperated for so long but i know we love and respect each other very much. we live by God's agenda not our own,so we have put our faith in God's hands.

tag you''re it

Tag, Your It
Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?'Have you ever kissed someone?''Missed someone?''Told someone you loved them?''Drank alcohol?'
1. What bill do you hate paying the most: the visa
2. What's the best place to eat a romantic dinner: on top of a car as the planes go over you
3. Last time you puked from drinking? twicw and never again

4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar?-not at a bar but at someone's house party
5. Name of your first grade teacher?-hmm
6. What do you really want to be doing right now?sleeping
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?- lawyer or nurse
8. How many colleges did you attend?- 2
19. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now?-its comfy
10. GAS PRICES! First thought?- wish i had a car to complain
11. If you could move anywhere and take someone with you...- paris
12. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?- bill please hit the snooze
13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?- i'm going to beat my depression
14. Favorite style of underwear?- to much info
15. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite/same sex?-boxers
16. What errand/chore do you despise?-anything in the bathroom
17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer at an art gallery?-for sure
18. Get up early or sleep in?-Sleep in!!,but what's that?
19. What is your favorite cartoon character: the bear of course (winnie)
20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy?-watch a movie
21. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?- sorry a secret is a secret
24. Your favorite lunch meat?-turkey breast
25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?-ice tea
26. Beach or lake?-beach if it means ocean
!!27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20?- no never
28. Who do you stalk on MySpace?-no one
29. Favorite guilty pleasure?-ice tea
30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?- jerry mcguire
31. What's your drink?-don't drink but socially strawberry daquri
32. Cowboys or Indians?-cowboys
33. Cops or Robbers?- cops
34. Do you cheer for the bad guy?-no but when i watched the whole nine yards and the whole ten yards
35. What Hollywood star do you think resembles you best?- none
36. If you had to pick one, which cast member of "Lost" would you be?-kate
37. What do you want when you are sick?-sleep
38. Who from high school would you like to run into?-julie,maryanne.grant,too many too list
39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?-don't have a car
42. Norm or Cliff?-neither
43. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons?- Cosby show
44. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?- hurting my dear freind by letting my pride get the best of me
45. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?-yes!
46. If you could get away with it, who would you kill?- no one
47. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?-julia roberts and natalie portman and celine dion
48. What famous person would you like to sleep with?- no one
49. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?- yes
50. Last book you read for real?-catch 22
.51. Do you have a teddy bear?-yes pooh bear
52. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?-in the middle of nowhere hunting with my dad
53. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?-orange county
54. Number of texts in a day?- one
55. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or relationship?a new relationship with my mom
56. Do you go to church?- Yes
57. Pencil or pen?- Pen
58. bueller??? bueller??? bueller?? loved it
59. How many jobs have you had?-6,nanny,chevron,homecare attendant,coles,janitor and barkleys,still home care attendant(7years+


60. What do you want to achieve in life?-god's work

September 08, 2006

Tagged
1. If you make sweet tea, or your favorite style, do you use Luzianne, Lipton or something else?Lipton
2. What brand of toilet paper do you buy and is it the larger rolls or regular?Purex. I use large..,with 4 people yep large .3
3. Which brand of bath soap do you use? shower gel olay of oil
.4. What cereal do you buy for yourself? special k almond vanilla5. What brand of dishwasher detergent do you use? Liquid
6. What's your favorite fruit?peaches and kiwi....
7. Which brand of laundry detergent do you use?Tide or sunlight liquid
.8. Do you like chocolate?love but can't have it
!9. Are you right or left-handed?Right handed.
10. Do you still write checks or use a debit card?deposit...does that count?debit all the way

amazing

What an amazing sermon today,just loved it.

What an awesome 1st week of school

The kids both had awesome weeks and it went alot smoother than expected.well i can finally post that picture of jordan and his friends and cousin.So tonight we are having a sleepover(jord)and samm is spending the night at Kelly's.There must be something going around as i feel yucky.I have a fever and a headache and i ache(whine).Sniffle sniffle well that is all i am going to post as I am sleepy..,love you all tanya

On week down

Well this year is going to be an awesome school year.Jordan has three teachers and he likes them all,in fact one used to be his gr.2 teacher.Samm also likes all her teachers.One improvement already jordan came home and had his homweork done.So all I had to do was check it and he got it all right.Bill is slowly getting better,but with any injury to the spine it takes a little while.well must run time to go to work.
Quote for the day,"The challenge is in the moment,the time is always now",--James Baldwin

school tommorrow

Well yesterday at church was amazing I have never felt so uplifted as I did yesterday.Was it the worship music or the sermon? Acutally it was both and a newfound sense of belonging and finally making God my rock.No more focusing on the negative cause what will happen will be.I no longer feel alone or stuck in a bad place.I have a great family within our church and it is about time I embrace it.So for anyone I have let down I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. With school tommorrow this will be a short post for today.However I leave you with this....,
"lET US HOLD FIRMLY TO THE HOPE THAT WE HAVE CONFESSED,BECAUSE WE CAN TRUST GOD TO DO WHAT HE PROMISED", HEBREWS 10:23. With love tanya

something that makes you go hmmm????

Well as I was blowdrying my hair,yes I still do sometimes many thoughts came to me.One has to wonder how a church holds itself together?Is it really God that holds it all together keeping all his children together all brothers and sisters?Really, why is it only 20% of the people are doing all the work.Is it because people are afraid to come out of their comfort zone,or is there more to it?I believe there is more to it in fact many may feel that by stepping out they will be judged or noone will listen to their imput.Many will say that church is suppossed to be a place where you feel safe and can be yourself without judgement.Or that you are apart of a family,but what happens when one commits a sin?What happens when one becomes undone?Do we turn away from them or comfort them or judge them?How do we move away from cliques within our own church?From time to time it is a great idea to step back and really look at our brothers and sisters,who hangs with whom and why?We need to be asking ourselves how long does it take for a person to unravel?I am guilty of this myself ,how much contact do we have with our brothers and sisters and why do we leave it so long before we make contact?Alot of us have very busy lives but what is a minute really? Am I afraid to post this...,no for the first time in my life.

Wow September Already

Well what a busy month i have.The kids are back in school on tuesday,i have the doc's on Thursday see how bad my back is and how my red and white cells are doing for those of you who don't know I have Fanconi Anemia.Plus work and my brother's 19th on the 3rd and my sister's 19th on the 30th.Hopefully Bill can go back to work around sept 15th.(praying).Well it is late so i am running off to catch some sleep.Blessings to everyone...,tanya

Dear Mr. President (Pink)

wow,what a powerful song got to me the first time i heard it