I can not begin without saying what a crazy two weeks my family has had.I was so excited for some girl time.For it had been such a long time.During this time I get a phone call from my Mom.Now immediateness something is wrong.My mom is one who never calls my cell unless something is wrong. It turns out my brother was in the emergency room awaiting to be transferred to ICU.I brought them food and went home to grab things needed for an overnight-er at the hospital. My Dad went home for rest while mom and i stayed. I went home that Saturday at 1030am. It wasn't till that afternoon he was transferred .My brother spent a week and a bit there.He is now home.That week I spent a lot of time in the hosp.Does it ever make you thankful for precious moments.However it didn't end there. My daughter called that Monday to tell me her great grandmother had passed away.I also found out my biological father had gone in for surgery and I wasn't informed.Even though all this has happened I still am thankful for the wonderful memories that have been created in times of difficulty. With Easter coming I'm so thankful for the small things.I'm thankful that my brother is home to celebrate Easter with us.I'm so thankful that my daughter will be home on the 8th,which is when we are doing Easter.I'm thankful that even through all the confusion,frustration and sadness that my son can make me laugh.I'm so thankful that we will all be together for Easter.I'm thankful for the sunshine,the birds singing and flowers blooming.
Why is is that we as Christians live by blind faith.I am asked this all the time. For you can not see but you still believe.I was recently challenged on this belief.After all why believe in something
you can not physically see?For me I feel at peace in knowing that no matter what I am loved and not alone. However this alone has sometimes left me challenged.I was recently diagnosed with Lupus and I will admit I cried.Then went through anger,sadness and finally acceptance.I felt at the end like this was one more thing to handle or per say deal with.I asked a friend after my brother was diagnosed with Duchenne's Muscular Dystrophy at four and a half, my mom with colon cancer,myself heart condition and now Lupus the latter three being within the last three years how much more can I handle. She told me God doesn't give you anything you can't handle.I told her honestly I can not handle anymore. Well it has been four months and she was right.It hasn't been easy though by any means.Even though with all the sunshine we have been having and the recent discovery that the very thing I love must now be enjoyed with precautions. I must say though I am scared and once i admitted that the peace came
from within.
Having blind faith to me means I can be unsure,uncertain and afraid but know I am not alone.I know that I am loved.This comes with having trust.But for me a state of peace.
This has given me the ability to be so thankful for so many things;
The first for my two children who have taught me so much patience , love and understanding.
The second for my other half who has so much patience within my bad days.
For my loving family,friends who have shown me so much love and support.
I leave you with this;
