We are always told that things come in seasons but when you see those seasons happen and change right in front of your eyes it is sometimes overwhelming.I always have believed that things happen for a reason and it is out of my control.That God doesn't give us anything we can't handle but what if he does? Then what? Recently i have felt that i have been given too much too handle and i haven't been quite sure how to deal with it all.
After almost losing my baby brother(22)he is 15 years younger than me my family has been faced with yet another surgery for him.He has two options and one is operate on his vocal cords and he will not have a voice.
the second is move his feeding tube from where it is to his small intestine,which is very risky and he may not be strong enough to come out of the surgery this time. my mom has started chemotherapy after having surgery for colon cancer.the surgery was successful however with the chemo treatments she is tired and we don't know what the future may hold.
My heart condition is still being worked out and has resulted with me being on medication for it for the rest of my life.
But with all of this going on it has been so hard to not be mad,angry,sad and that is where my depression as come in.For the first time in my life trying to be strong has been the hardest thing for me to do.I know that this will all pass and in time we will move into another season but in the mean time can't i say that this is just too much!!! blessings everyone till thursday!!!
