Sometimes it is just the way I feel!!!! No more tears I promise

Love is...,

" Love is patient;love is kind and envies no one.
Love is never boastful,nor conceited,nor rude;
never selfish,not quick to take offense.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith, its hope,and enduracnce.
In a word,there are three things that last forever; faith ,hope,and love; but the
greatest of them all is love."

When it Hurts!!!!

Hi Everyone,
First and foremost hope everyone had a great time during the holidays!! Our holidays were very quiet.With Samm in P.G. it only left the three of us.It was great to have snow for christmas,although I am loving the snow we have now!! Gotta say it love the snow yep hmm hmm i do. We had a samll christams dinner and although i thought i bought a small turkey ended up with alot of leftovers. Bill came home for the holidays.I got a visitor called bronchitis and am almost over it.However all is good.Jord is back at school,Bill back in camp and for myself back to work and school.
My Grandmother always told me to have patience,to live laugh and love.The most important thing she taught me was to always always respect others.To always give back more than you recieve,as giving meas so much more.Now I loved my grandmother for all the things she taught me but most importantly for the love that shone through her.It is times like these that I miss her soo much.For she is everything I wish I could be,she was patient,loving,caring.The one thing I admire her for is being such a strong independent woman.You see my grandma and grandpa were divorced and she took care of 5 children.
With all of these things that she taught me then why does it hurt soo much when I consider everyone's feelings and help without anything in return that somehow I end up being the one hurting.I don't understand how some people feel that it is okay to make everyone else consider their feelings when they don't seem to care about yours or anyone else's.I mean when is enough enough???How much more can one person take??When repeating yourself over and over doesn't help,what more can you do?? Do you say enough and cut your losses?,or do you keep trying?

something different

from starlas blog,it was interesting to me!!!

Another Thingy

1) Favorite object in your room? nightable
2) Have you ever smoked heroin? Nope
3) Do you own guns? Toys guns
4) What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? hmm a what?
5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? sometimes
6) What do you think of hot dogs? can live without them
7) Favorite song? right now you can't break a broken heart,kate voegle
8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? water
9) Can you do push ups? nope
10) Can you do a chin up? don't think so
11) What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my necklace from my brother,never take it off
12) Do you like blue cheese? um gross
13) Ever been in a car wreck? yes
16) Middle name? hehe don't have one
17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? sleep,snow hmm the house is very quiet
18) Name 3 things you bought yesterday? peanuts,magazine,pop
19) Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?water,tea,water
20) Current worry?not getting enough sleep
21) Current hate right now? lack of sleep
23) How did you bring in the New Year? didn't i think i was sleeping
24) Where would you like to be right now? home
25) Name three people who will complete this? lynne,not sure
26) Do you own slippers?yep
27) What shorts are you wearing?? im not.
28) Do you sleep on satin sheets? nope to slippery
29) Can you whistle? yes but it gives me a headache
31) Would you be a pirate? no
32) What songs do you sing in the shower? i don't
33) Favorite girl's name? samantha
34) Favorite boy's name? jord
35) What's in your POCKET? don't have any
) Last thing that made you laugh?a funny email
37) Best bed sheets? from the dryer
38) Worst injury you've ever had? broke my sternum
39) Do you love where you live? its ok
40) How many TVs do you have in your house?3
41) Who is your loudest friend? ????
42) How many dogs do you have? 0
43) Does someone have a crush on you? Yes
44) What does your last text say? i love you and miss you
45) What is your favorite book? Bible,the secret life of bees
46) What is your favorite candy? bottlecaps
47) Favorite Sports Team? Canucks
48) Where is the next place you want to travel to? home
50) What was the first thing you did this morning? dishes

Thankful Thursday!!!

Thankful thursday often reminds me of something my grandfather told me and that was we do not need a special day or holiday to be thankful or be nice.In fact we should be thankful each and everyday.We should be the best we can be each and everyday or you will just end up cheating yourself.

I am very thankful for full time employment.
I am thankful for the time i get to spend with bill when he is home.
I am thankful for all the help i get from jord around the house.
I am once again thankful for my wonderful family and friends who get me.
The one thing i am most thankful for this week is life.

Hmm what a week!!!

Well i must say it has been a very busy week for our house!! I am now working full time at Mac's and I must say i love it.It feels so great to be working again and getting back to church.I don't have much to say other than life is good oh and bill is home till the 8th. Blessings!!!

Another day!!!

Well what an interesting day i have had.It started with my bathroom sink leaking everywhere leaving a huge mess.It is still leaking thank goodness I knew how to turn the water off.Now i wait patiently for it to be fixed.Then it started snowing again now normally i don't worry about the snow but working in thornhill gives me new worry.Then i got to go to work for 8 hours and thus keeping me awake into the early morning hours which is nothing new.Wish i could figure out this insomnia sleep would be nice eventually.Jord and i have another week till Bill gets home so we are decorating our tree on wednesday night and the house.I can't wait as it will be soo much fun.Wishin you all a great day. Blessings

Never Judge a Book By It's Cover!!!

As time goes by and with each passing day it truly amazes me how quickly everyone forgets this.Hmm what makes me write about this is no matter what we do in life we are all judged each and every day by each and every person we meet.Our actions also give more room for people to judge.But with this judgement can come rudeness,short tempers and hurt.The one area i notice that we are judged the most upon is out jobs.Our very lively hood.Just becasue someone stays at home with their baby,chooses to go back to work after after children,or just in a job to finish school.This brings me to something that i have experienced time and time again.I was shopping the other evening and yes it was Walmart.There were only two cashiers on and it wasn't really busy, so one cashier was on a break and all i heard was complaining.First of all you look bad complaining,drawing negative attention unless of course that is what you want.Second don't just leave your buggy there for a worked to put away,don't you think they have enough to do.Third don't you think the cashier feels bad enough about the long lineups and proably has had it listening to you and every one else complain.Have you even thought about the person behind the till just trying to do their job and what kind of day they might be having? Of course not.Do you ever think of the day they might be having.Of course not.How do you know if they have a baby or sick children or if they just lost someone .Well i can answer that for you don't and you proably don't care.Now don't get me wrong a lot of you do care. We all know that nowadays we live in a society that judges and jobs have become thankless.Just once don't you think it would be nice to recipicate,"How are you today". Blessings

Talk about Crazy weather!!!!!

I went to work today and it was raining,then wham it started to snow for almost 4 hours.It was so awesome and beautiful,wishing i had brought my camera.However being at work I couldn't.It is so funny to me how people are so grumpy about the snow.Do people forget that we live in Terrace,Northern B.C. and it is Nov 21st.I just love the snow so much in fact that by the time i got home the snow turned to rain making it impossible to make snow angels.So now i leave you with a couple of my favorite scriptures. So hope you enjoy and if you have snow please make a snowangel for me.

Philippians 2:14-16
I will do all things without complaining or arguing,so that I may become blameless and pure,a child of God witout fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation,among whom I shine as a light in the world, holding fast the Word of Life.

1 Corinthians 16: 14
I want everything I do to be done in love.


Blessings.

Thankful Thursday!!!!!

Wow amazing i am not late this week.It is Thursday right!!
I have had an amazing week. Work has been going very well even though I have been busy.I am so happy that I am back in church after such a long hiatus.I have been loving the snow that is trying to come down.
So i begin with
I am thankful for work when so many do not have the opportunity for work.
I am thankful for the beautiful snow covered mountains.
I am thankful for the Lord's presence each and every day of our lives.
I am thankful for the unconditional love from within my children.
I am thankful for my wonderful family and friends who are there when the days are sad and the nights are long.
I am thankful for my loving ,patient parents who are there no matter how many times I've made mistakes.
I am so very thankful for the medical marvels that have given my brother life each and every day.He is now 21 yes 21.I love you so very much.Thankyou for every thing you have taught me and continue to teach me.

Wow !!! Love this song and artist!!!

For someone special!!!

What a Week!!!

It has been another busy funfilled week even though at times tiring.I must say that i was very disappointed when it snowed and didn't stay.I so want to make snow angels.So i say bring on the snow!!!Not sure why i love snow so much!I am sure it has something to do with living most of my life on Vancouver Island.Boy oh boy do i miss home.Although I know that home is where the heart is.But what if just what if your heart won't let you let go?Does it mean that just this once your heart knows what is best for you?Or is your heart playing tricks on you?Confusing your memories of the home you left behind? Making you feel homesick?
So on to my week of fun!!
I just started a new job that i really am enjoying,working 8 hours a day then being a mom and everything else that goes with it.As well as finishing up my degree can make for a long day.Jordan and I are adjusting to just the two of us being home now.I didn't think my house could ever be this quite.It definatly has been very hard in fact I don't want to ever get used to it.I miss samm so much even though i know she wasn't going to be living at home her whole life.I just hoped she would have stayed a little longer.FOR YOU SAMM

Well here i am again a day late for thankful thursday,hmm wondering if i will ever get back on schedule.I always have alot to be thankful for but here are some things that make it for this week!!
I am thankful for my daughters safe return home.
I am thankful that my migraine went away with only one trip to the hospital this time!!
I am thankful for my new job and the opportunity i have been given!
I am thankful for great friends and family which goes without saying!!
I am thankful for the snow yeppers the snow even though everyone is complaining.

Thankful Thursday..,oops a day late!

I know it has been soo long since i posted a post on Thankful Thursday,but am glad to say i will be making regular postings.So here we go

Thankful Thursday
I am thankful for my great family and friends.
I am thankful for my daughter's safe move to another city.
I am thankful that my son is learning to like school again.
I am thankful for the time I can spend with my husband when he is home from camp.
I am thankful for our new house.
I am thankful for the time i get to spend with a special little baby each and every day.
I am thankful for the sun,and the colors in the leaves.
I am thankfukl for the lord's presence in each and every day.

A post of !!!!!!

The last few weeks have been tiring,sressful,complicated and confusing but fun!!!I have felt a change coming on for so long it is hard to explain.I am feeling driven from within and above.Perhaps just perhaps my prayers are being answered.I feel that by withdrawing from everything and unfortunatly everyone is what i needed to gain perspective.Gone are the days where i am trying to be someone im not.It was so easy to lose myself but even harder to find myself again.I can really relate to this song.

Good Morning!!!!

Wow it has been since June since I posted anything.
So here is a quick update as you all know Samm has graduated from school.I am so proud of her as she recieved 2 scholarships.She has moved to Prince George to start the next chapter of her life.In Sept she will be going back to school to work towards becoming a detal hygienist.For those who know how talented she is with her artwork for now it will be a hobby.Since she has moved out and on I am left with did I teach you everything you need to know.Then i remember yes i did as she is kind,caring,loving and not afraid to be who she is and stand up for her beliefs.Then i have other times where i am sad as she isn't home.The other day I was watching Americas next top model which we watch together and all i could think of was what part would we laugh at together,then when i laughed i knew.
As for my other bestfriend Jordan. He is now in grade 9.Yes i know grade9.Jordan is having a hrad time adjusting to having noone to argue with over what to watch on tv,or whos trun is it to do the dishes.Jordan is struggling day to day with his dyslexia but in spite of it all he wants to be a vet.Lately he can be found playing on the computer,or with his wii.He is slowly coming out of his shell,which is great to see.He recently lost one of his turtles.Summer was a blast as this was his first summer home with us.Wow oh wow can he play tennis.
For my soulmate Bill he is hardly home as he is working soo much,which is good becasue come April he will be heading up his own kitchen and camp.He is so thankful for the opportunity but at the same time he is nervous.Bill has his good an bad days with his ankel and when he is home life is complete.
With me I am back in school working towards becoming a medical office assistant one more year and i am done.Recently when i was working i had a gas spill and followed safety procedures to a t.Then i had a off duty cop come in wanting to get gas,well i couldn't and wouldn't turn on the pumps.He got very angry as i wouldn''t let his wife start the car oh did i mention he ran over the cones and on top of the spill.yeah.So he told me i couldn't hold her there and he would charge me with unlawful confinement i said go ahead,He then told me he was a cop i then asked him what is your point? Well he left the next day he talked to my boss and i was told to apologize.I tols him i wouldn't as i wasn't in the wrong.I was then told to take a few days to think about it.Well i did and i now don't have a job.Now i know fogiveness is different than apologizing for something you feel you didn't do anything wrong.I am trying to teach my children to stand up for what they believe is right,but i am worried that they may think standing up for themselves is not the right thing to so afterall i lost my job.
We have had the opportunity to go home and visit my mom,brother and dad.Which was a blast.

Have you Ever?

Have you ever had a dark place or a happy place?I have with much regret been in a dark place.Unless you have been there can you fully understand?You may think you can relate but honestly you have to be there.I know how much control this has on someone.I know that God won't give us more than we can handle,but sometimes i wonder how he can give a person so much to deal with?Being in a dark place affects everything you do.Everything and everyone suffer.Your family and friends are affected as you build walls that are hard to take down.Your work suffers.Friends don't understand and think you are mad at them,when you really aren't.Things that you enjoyed doing are no longer fun but feel like a chore.Your sleep suffers either too much or too little.Your appetite suffers.You close off the whole world and enter into complete isolation.Leaving many to wonder what happened.
Being able to answer questions becomes very difficult..You can't guarantee that it won't happen again.As you start to become better and more aware of what's around you there is always that fear of being critizied for your actions.You fear rejection from your peers or being isolated.When you are in a dark place it isn't where you want to be but understanding how you got there can help.It isn't the time to judge or leave them all alone,when what you need is the comfort of having your friends there loving and caring for you just as you are.

ThAnKfUl ThUrSdAy!!!!!

I am thankful for my family,for without them I would not be who I am today.
I am so very thankful for my wonderful children and how God trusts us to take care of them.
I am so thankful that Samm has found love in a world that doesn't neccesarily understand love.
I am thankful that Bill is going back to work after his back injury.
I am thankful for Jordan's health and every funny thing he does to cheer me up when i am feeling blue.
I am thankful that our river has receded a bit.
I am thankful for life itself.